"People killing, people dying. Children hurt, and you hear them crying. Can you practice what you preach...would you turn the other cheek? Father, Father, Father, help us with some guidance from above. Cause people got me got me questioning, 'Where is the love?'"
May every innocent soul in Orlando rest in the safest and holiest of peace. Tears stream down my face right now as I think about a gay club in Orlando. You know, the gay club like Sidetracks that I went to in Chicago with my gay mentors, Jeff and Kevin. You know, like Machine that I went to with all of my college friends in Boston. You know, like Therapy (how FUCKING appropriately named) that I went to with my dear, dear friend Jeremy as I tried to find my own friend circle in New York. You know, those kinds of hangouts.
Fuck hate. I'm so sick of it. My life thesis: trying to make a living by singing, dancing, and acting or some combination therein. And trying to find someone with whom to share the rest of my life, somewhere WAY down the line. Nowhere in there did I mention actively trying to hate or hurt anyone. And yet, here we are, America. Forty-nine dead and fifty three wounded.
Forty-nine dead. Dead. Let's all take an un-desensitized moment to let that sink in, shall we? Forty-nine people who had futures, and families, and friends, and feelings... No, Omar Mateen decided these features weren't important. They had one defining characteristic: their sexual orientation. Way to go, you senseless asshole. You made the right choice. I hope God deals with you swiftly and unfavorably. Because I, unlike you, leave judgment up to God. I do not try to play God and decide when lives are over. I hope and pray for the best option for people. Even you.
"This is the worst act of terrorism since 9/11."
"Deadliest domestic shooting."
And yet, people are trying to act like this is not an attack on LGBT individuals. Really, Sky News? We can't confirm that this was an attack on LGBT individuals? As Owen Jones so pointedly put it before being disrespected out of the conversation, if this had happened in a Synagogue (a place where [people of a certain demographic] ALSO come for solace and/or safety away from the world), there would be NO QUESTION that this was a hate crime against the Jewish Community. Oh right. The gay community isn't as important. My bad. Sooner or later I'll learn my place.
The world makes me sad. It never used to make me sad before. Gotta look for the light. Gotta find it. Where is the love?
Forgiving the Body Which Grows My Wings (Part I)
June 6, 2016
The First Day of the Rest of My Life (attempt #4?)